Thursday, December 1, 2011
Back to emo state
Im back! Finaly back! Who can i blame but my zodiac leo on behalf of my laziness!? been to lazy to change my template! Oook! I promise myself....to change the template IF i got the time to on my pc tmr...kena scolded for hours due to overtimed of onlining.... How can i resist the seduction after such a long time of nose-sticking on books!? Thick books! Now finished biology the no.1 osama look-alike enemy...its like a huge load on me suddenly dissappear in thin air....how can i not float!? Imma shoot up high into the sky after chinese man! Who cares by then? Owh...national service...yah imma enjoy that though its electronics-disabled by then, at least physical trainings is on my way!(hope the gender problems like manstrual wont block my way to happiness those days....== till now i still cant find any significance being a girl....heck! Why im not given a penis since im given an adam's apple already!?
Back to the blogging stuffs....now AS IF exam is over, i've been giving lots of attention on exam issue and now suddenly in a huge relief...brain suddenly being emptied out...now i feel empty and loss, total out of expectations that i should be feeling happy and enjoy the holiday. The brain, from scientific mode being suddenly changed to emotion-dealing mode...everything i put down before exam rushes in like a huge current flowing in...somore the time of spice...adding taste into these, heck suffocating!! Sigh...now looking at my template...how i used to be so crazy n happy go lucky! Now its conquered by all kinds of feelings from leaving apart with friends and other not-supposed-to-deal issues...now i guess i needa find some other emo templates and change the songs ald....goodbye childhoods! Hoped to see u again within i short period of time... Needa enjoy childhood before getting out of school life, into the nasty world! Now i hope university life is still something enjoyable...i wonder hows germany uni life on the other side of my world...seems like im going there for further studies after form6....free educations discluding daily expances! How nice of it!
9 more days...its gonna be 1 year annivarsary of my taiwan trip with awesome peoplez! Also the day i know the "good friend" of mine...how stupid,its been more than half a year of disconnection...yet im still giving useless hope at the same time discouraging myself about it and tried hard to make things fade...how great, the stain still remain as if its never washed before...
Ive been listening to many bitter stories...but nvr told mine to anyone, why am i so stubborn? Keeping this to myself...but who to trust? Best friend doesnt mean its a suitable person to share with...the more u share the more u get relieved but at the same time many things can happen without expectation...the safest secret is kept within oneselves...thats my way...how can u call that a secret when theres others knowing it? But, still...desperately waiting for a black hole to at least share my secrets...my locker is somehow full already...
